today is just today

confused.....confuzzled.....tired. yep thats me. im good, great actually. just going along and working hard. but so much is happening and its so twisted and messy. im just gonna try to fix everything and make everything organized. but i hate that im stuck in the 'i dont knows' i dont know whats happening anymore. its ok though. i can still have fun and still enjoy the sunshine even with all this pressure and decisions im going through. so its all good for now. two things im excited about: i really really really want a pair of high top pink converse.....but i cant find them anywhere....so lets cross our fingers in my search for the much wanted shoes :) next is i really want my nails done....im an idiot because having nails at my work is like finger suicide. but i dont care, i want me some pink,navy blue and white nails. its been summer for a week. who knew? i didnt thats for sure. its only been a week and i still have months to go :) yay summer so i really dont have anything else to say besides that. i know im lame today. get over it i spent 7 hours weeding at my work. scratches all up and down my legs and arms..yay. but my manager loved me for it. anywho. peace and blessings. have an awesome night. heres hoping that my day off tomorrow will be fun.

Oh just Reminiscing in bliss

sometimes you just need to blow bubbles and watch the stars :) and sometimes you just have to brush off harsh words or hard times like they are dust on your shoulders. Hard and stupid things ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS happen. it is INEVITABLE that hard times happen. and it is INEVITABLE that we will be too busy, that we will be too stressed and that we will be discouraged. sorry to say but we will feel these!!! haha but its kinda like a soda pop :) sometimes we get shook up and sometimes we get left behind, and there will be times where we will explode or loose our fizz :) the point of it is, is that we get back up and we continue to taste good :) haha ok ok thats a weird analogy....but! something i know to be true is that it is our CHOICE to be happy and it is our CHOICE to do the best in any situation we are thrown in. :) but sometimes we just need that "gotta love life' moment :) WHICH are found in the smallest and some may say stupidest activities. haha like blowing bubbles, coloring with chalk, watching stars, dancing in the rain, playing make believe, or even dressing up :) just remember YOLO! you only live once :) and why should we not live fully if we only live once>??? so just smile, act like a five year old and smile more. just keep truckin and just keep living! :D so i find it hilarious that when i was little i used to set up elaborate desks and stations, i would get old computers, boxes, markers, papers, and random pieces of wood and such, and set up business's all around my houses. i would make it all:) from 'jenni's bakery' to "jennis coloring pages" to my magic show/store....hahah good times good times. i would make menu's, use my two dollars and change from under the couch and buy merchandise to sell to my family..it was perfect bliss. it was alot funner than being an actual cashier is. haha i guess being a real cashier now only stinks because i feel so much responsibility, and back then the only bad thing was running out of honey buns, or my parents only buying about 6 papers from me:) but to be honest i dont necessarily miss it, yes i love reminiscing about it, and laughing at my cute little self, but i love living now, in this moment, with the most amazing people around me :) as fun as setting up magic shows was, and as awesome as playing with my little friends and stuffed animals was, nothing compares to the moments i get with my cowboy, or the way i feel after a fun and fulfilling day at work, or after laughing until i am crying with my girls :) my life has a lot of downers.true. but my life is so great! i am alive, and not only that but i am living :) and as this summer begins all i know for certain is that i will keep smiling no matter what happens, and that i will seize every moment i can with my loved ones. SO HAPPY SUMMER OF 2012 may it hold everything you dream of :) may the nights be long, the days be sunny, the kisses sweet, the music loud and your smile as beautiful as ever! \

bouncin back like tigger

so heres the deal. yesterday=awful. but today=better :) this morning i woke up to a fabulous 6 page text from one of my greatest friends....it included this amazing quote "dont pray for an easier life but pray for the strength to endure through life." i LOVE THIS. because no matter what we all get discouraged, we all have hard times and we all just want to give up. and i always thought that if i just hoped in tommorrow it would be okay...but that isnt enough. what i have to do is pray for a brighter today and not just that but for the strength that i know the lord can give me to get through it to that brighter tommorrow :) ah KALEB you are amazing :) you turned my day completly around. so today was great more or less..i actually got through work without feeling tired,,and i had tons of fun :) my hands hurt but feel so tough from running the rockwall, and i think im still sweating from being behind the cashier desk, but all is well :) i have amazing co-workers and amazing supervisers and managers. like seriously they rock my socks right off. i couldnt ask for a better experience :) plus i got to dance/clean bumber boats in the pouring rain,, <3 it was lovely.

Funniest thing that happened today is what happened over the radio. superviser into radio: hey matt whats your 20 Matt: im in the back parking lot doing weed..........shoot! I MEANt PULLING WEEDS!!!" haha i may have peed my pants a little at this it was hilarous :) so im ok. i realized who the people in my life are who REALLY care :) and i love you guys so much :) even if im lonely i wil always know im not alone, and that is such a blessing. :) So my summer is going to be>>>WORK!WORK!AND MORE WORK! but that gets me my mustang :) :) :) :)

so were good :) but! now that things have kinda changed i will be posting a new and improved summer list #2!! so look for that tommorrow :) thank you everyone for everything :) no one is alone...there is always someone who loves you, you just need to open up your eyes and realize it. and know i am here for you too :) even if your a stranger im here for you :) because im jenni vz :) nuff said....haha so ttfn ps. my new favorite character: TIGGER

(yes i watched the tigger movie yesterday :) dont judge when im sad i like to watch sad movies so that i cry over someone elses sadness and not pity myself :) and its tigger because he reminds me of me...haha we are both so happy, we know that the secret to life is to keep bouncing smiling and have fun :) and even though when were sad, were pretty sad and for a good reason, we both have great friends to help us keep going and just keep bouncing :) yay tigger :)