crunchy leaves and hugs

i want him to make my heart skip a beat. i want my breathe stolen. what can i say i want him to love me as the leaves fall down around us. mmm this song makes my heart jump every time <3 i want this :) :) and i think i might just be finding it :) i just want to melt ;) Sara Haze-Melt Into You :) it could be the pang of the guitar and sweet country twang that ive been listening to all day country music does tend to make me feel this way..maybe its the leaves changing colors and the clouds gathering above my head, telling me that the world is changing and taunting me to make change too. Maybe its the long phone calls. maybe. maybe its that warm cozy feeling of autumn :) but whatever it is, i like it. i like how my heart feels full, i like how the cold breeze cant freeze the warmth inside me. i like the feeling of my brain and heart and face smiling :) i like it alot. so general conference has only been over for a little over 24 hours and i miss it so much :) wouldnt it be something if we could have one of gods choosen leaders talk to us once every day?? i think i need to look into this more....haha but i have to say that my favorite part of the whole conference was the saturday morning session :) there was such a special spirit during those first two hours. it was miraculous. and may i just say that the moment President Monson began speaking about the ages of missionaries. i broke down. the tears were streaming down my smiling face even before he said it. the spirit of true revelation was so powerful. it overcame me completly. many people know that in my heart i have always hoped that the age for girls to go on missions would be lowered so that i could accomplish all the things in balance i want to. i dont think that ive felt such a powerful moment of sheer joy and excitement in my whole life!! i will always have something to smile about, i dont think anything could bring me 'really' down ever again. because the lord is calling me into his army :) he wants me and all my fellow youth to go now. :) i couldnt be happier. for me, jennifer ann vanzant, a precious daughter of god have been summoned to serve in the lords army, to gather together the lost children of isreal. ahhh!! i cant wait!! less than 19 months until im 19 and on my mission :D long talks, simple laughs, and clever words. i thrive off of these :) and sometimes i let them take too much a piece in my heart too soon. people are unpredictable, and no matter what, sadly, people break promises. but i think ive finally, finally found a friend who wont do that...i trust him. :) and dont get me wrong ive been so blessed in my life to meet so many different kinds of people who have taught me lots of different lessons, and getting attached to fast isnt good for anyone. so in the words of a truly amazing guy "just be yourself and it'll make me smile" :) so thats just what im gonna do, im gonna just keep being jenni, keep being happy, im gonna enjoy the little moments, and not worry about the annoying things, im gonna love deeply and laugh hard, im gonna be confident and live to the fullest :) haha yes that is a pep talk to my self thanks for participating yo :) i love this fall weather, warm sweaters, scarfs, gloves, holding hands, snuggling, watching movies, staying indoors, writing while watching the leaves fall, smelling the cold in the air, and the sense of change :) anything is possible in autumn <3