Tuesday, May 15, 2012

The rambling of a girl listening to country music

guess what...im getting tan. :D YES tan. i know right hard for me to believe too....O.o i dont think ive ever been tan in my life, so you can probably imagine how super excited i am :) the funny thing about me is that i find simple pleasure in the simplest things..like 5 seconds ago my brother sent me the sweetest text, just asking how my day was and saying that he loves me and says im amazing...umm yep makes me smile. or just waking up to sunshine streaming through my window, knowing that today i get to lay out in my yard and soak up some rays :) or when my boyfriend texts me good morning beautiful. ^-^ oh golly i could live, breathe and smile off of moments like those. i find great satisfaction in making a wish by blowing dandelion fluff everywhere, or taking a bubble bath with candllight bouncing off the walls. these are the things i do constantly that keep me, well me. :) these moments are what define me, they are super important to the balance of a 'jenni day' and suprisingly i never get sick of it. unlike my favorite food, color or favorite book or movie which change almost daily, my little quirks ( you may call them glitches ;) )are my favorite part of myself and what i know will always be a part of me. each of us has a beat. you can call it a rythm or a light. but its there inside each of us. it drives us forward. it makes us work hard, it makes us love, it makes us smile and laugh, it becomes and changes with every moment we experience. it. IS NEVER COMPLETE. it can always be rearranged it can always be improved. its fabulous really.....if you think about each step we take, each song we listen to, each person we meet and the each love we fall into...each single point is like the point in a spiders web,
where one thread meets another. at that itsy bitsy teeny weeny point we become who we are. and it continues on to each small meeting point. the choices we make, the people we meet, the things we like and the things we think, even those little quirks like holding your breath in a tunnel or crying in disney movies :)....they drive us to ourselves, they create ourselves. we are each special :) ya ya i know you hear this from your mom every day, but seriously. its IMPOSSIBLE not to be special :) with each second we become a different person, we may not have made the choices we wanted to our are on the paths of our lives that are ideal...but we are completly and utterly on our way to our best self. :) we are each fabulously, crazily, and fantastically unique. we are the BEST at being OURSELF. so dont change. dont hide. dont tone down your personality. just LIVE. live outloud :)
its alot funner that way :) and it will take away pressure, stress, and sorrow if we know that we are wonderful :)because we really are :) no one has my sense of style, no one is as ticklish as me, noone has the love for one crazy cowboy as much as i do, :)and noone is as crazily optimistic and as jenni as i am :) and i love me :)
lets be honest im not perfect! thank god im not! haha i love my imperfections, and i love how far i have to go :) im not gonna get discouraged because im not what i want to be, im excited that i get to work hard to be who i really want to be :) and im sure as heck gonna have fun along the way!!!
because JENNIFER ANN VZ is in this life FOR THE DISTANCE!! :) I can go as far as i want and i dont have all too much time so im gettin busy and really living right now! and every day! :)

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